Shine on you crazy diamond

Posted by Lex Konrad in Opinions | Jun 01, 2005

While digging through some recent comments I happened upon this gem from Grego:

How do you say you are above what others are doing sexually at the parties? This whole blog is about noting but “fucking for the sake of fucking”. It is all souless and strickly about just sex. I fail to see anywhere in this blog that you are not just obssessed about sex. You are moving from sex encounter to sex encounter but where is it really getting you. I feel you are being blinded like so many others (including how I was). How do you really see yourself any different? If anything you are worse as you have decicated a whole blog just to sex for the sake of sex. You are just fooling yourself.

I met a youngish man of the cloth once, a long time ago, in a little town somewhere in Bavaria. He was a fellow American so we naturally struck up a conversation. I asked him how he’d come to choose his calling. He explained that he’d spent much of his 20s drinking and whoring, and that upon waking up one morning in an alley after a particularly nasty bender he’d had what alcoholics refer to as a moment of clarity. An epiphany.

“It’s probably not difficult for you to walk the straight and narrow,” I told him.

“Why is that?” he asked.

“It sounds like there aren’t any sins left for you to commit,” I answered, grinning, and then we both burst out laughing.

Grego reminds me of that guy, minus the sense of humor.

I never took issue with Grego’s parties and lifestyle, only with his pathological need to have everyone suck his dick, metaphorically speaking. He and others turned what should have simply been a good time into an agonistic spectacle.

Grego wanted to become the poster-boy for kinky anonymous sex—apparently he got the attention he asked for but not the validation he craved. Now he wants to become the poster-boy for clean living. It may be a different message, but it’s the same wild-eyed frothing at the mouth some of us have come to know all too well.

This one, Grego, goes out to you, wherever you are. Good luck and Godspeed.

Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun
Shine on you crazy diamond
Now there’s a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky
Shine on you crazy diamond
You were caught in the crossfire of childhood and stardom, blown on the steel breeze
Come on you target for faraway laughter, come on you stranger, you legend, you martyr, and shine!

You reached for the secret too soon, you cried for the moon
Shine on you crazy diamond
Threatened by shadows at night, and exposed in the light
Shine on you crazy diamond
Well you wore out your welcome with random precision, rode on the steel breeze
Come on you raver, you seer of visions, come on you painter, you piper, you prisoner, and shine!

Nobody knows where you are, how near or how far
Shine on you crazy diamond
Pile on many more layers, and I’ll be joining you there
Shine on you crazy diamond
And we’ll bask in the shadows of yesterday’s triumph, sail on the steel breeze
Come on you boy child, you winner and loser, come on you miner for truth and delusion, and shine!

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